Silence and Darkness

I read a few days ago about a torture called "sensory deprivation" torture. Basically, they lock people into a room, oftentimes in a silo of some sort, where the subject cannot see or hear anything for days. I am under the impression that they have food, water and facilities, and that other than the lack of new sensory information, they are completely fine. But the results are insane. Almost all subjects will immediately go to sleep, but then they wake up some time later and have no idea what time it is or how long they have been there. Many subjects then begin to pace, some think in an effort to exercise, but most think it is simply an effort to do something.
Soon, the subjects begin to hallucinate, seeing or hearing things that are simply not there. One man proclaimed that he had a conversation with his mom and sister. Another thought he had a tea party with some people. The mind will do funny things when left alone.

Sometimes I think God is doing some large experiment on me. Sometimes I go through life and feel like I hear his voice and see his lead very clearly. Other times, I wonder if he is even there at all. The skies are silent and I wonder if God even cares. But I have to believe that this effects him more than me. I think most of the time he would like nothing more than to show himself, to speak clearly and audibly to me, but wouldn't that take away the value or need for faith? Wouldn't that cause anyone and everyone to be so overwhelmed that they immediately worship him fully and completely. The hope we have is that some day, hopefully some day soon, we will see him close up, and hear the breath from his mouth, and know that we are home.