The Fall

When I read the Bible, it is hard for me to imagine how people can think that the God who inspired this book, the God who created this world and these typing hands, could possibly have wanted everything to turn out exactly as it is. I read in Genesis 3 of people breaking God's heart, but God still making clothing for them. The first sacrifice may have happened only hours after the first sin. God himself was the first to make the sacrifice. One of his beloved deer or lambs had to give its life just to cover up the shame of the humans.

Then I see the God who is so hurt by the Israelites, the God who delivered them, then days later they are worshiping a golden calf. God was so hurt in that time that he wanted to wipe them all out, but Moses prevailed upon him. Maybe God just needed someone with a cooler head to prevail upon him, or maybe God wanted Moses to argue, but God changed his mind, at least, thats what the Bible says.

Then in Hosea God describes himself like the faithful husband of a prostitute. And indeed he is. I can't help but see myself in Gomer, in Israel, in the disciples. When God most wants closeness to me, I am nowhere to be found. I pray that I am getting better, but I just don't know.

Morans...

I love this picture. I'm not entirely sure why, maybe because of the irony, maybe because of the nature of self-defeating idiocy, maybe just because of the mullet. I just simply don't get tired of looking at this picture.

Oh, sweet Dr. Pepper.

My Dr. Pepper fast has lasted 9 weeks. This is the longest I have gone without a cola. We have three fourths of a 2 liter of Pepsi in our fridge right now from Super Bowl Sunday, and I hear it calling my name. I want to keep it in there, so that I can master the temptation. By my count, I have about 25 weeks until I can drink another, and I plan on my first sip being that Pepsi.

My other goal is by that time to have read every book I own which I have never read. It seems kind of wasteful to me to have all these books sitting on my shelves which I have never read. I just finished one called "The Crucified God" by Jurgen Moltmann. I was very good, but also a hard read. I want to reread it again later. I still want to write my book, so hopefully I can do that sometime before fall too. Whether anyone would publish it, that is another question. But I do want to do that at some point in my life. I would also like to run a marathon, or punch myself in the face. I have heard that running a marathon is one of the hardest things you can do, but also one of the most rewarding. I am really just rambling, but it feels good to blog again, so hopefully I can continue doing this more regularly, as I say everytime.